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How To Resolve Conflicts In A Relationship

dawarinjin — Sat, 17 Jul 2010 08:24:24 +0000

Nurturing a relationship is vital if you want to stay together. Bitterness, irritation and constant stress between two people not only affects their personal mindset but also the people around. Learn to resolve fights and arguments by saying “Sorry.” But many find it hard to say this. It is important to understand that if you are wrong, admitting your mistake is the right thing to do. An argument doesn’t need a winner or a loser.

When in an argument, avoid bringing up the past as it will add more hostility. It is best to remain calm and above all forgive and forget. If you have to disagree then do it devotedly. There will be many occasions when you and your partner will not see things eye to eye. Learn to accept people as they are and adjust whole-heartedly.

Learn to be persistent in showing that both of you like each other and want to better your relationship at every stage of your life. This will create harmony and balance in your lives for years together.

समिप्यताको चाहाना

dawarinjin — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 05:46:57 +0000

उनको आँखामा आशाको बिश्वास अझ पनि मरेको छैन । अझ पनि ओईलन सकेको छैन फुल भमरा बिना ओईलन नसके जस्तै । उनको मन मानौ नयाँ प्रयोगका परिणाम झै उत्सुक र उत्कट छ । उनका पल हरुलाई म स्मृतिमा ताजा राख्न हमेशा सतर्क हुन्छु । उनका हरेक पलहरुलाई यसरी नै डायरीमा लिपीब¢ गर्न मन लाग्छ । मन भित्र दह्रो खम्बा गाडिएर नबसिएता पनि किन किन म उनको समिप्यतामा आनन्द महशुस गर्छु । मेरो कुनै उदेश्य वा ईरादा छैन तैपनि उनको समिप्यतामा मन पराउँछु । सायद अरु यसलाई प्रेम भन्छन् होला तर म कदापि मान्न तयार छैन । यो अनुभुतिलाई प्रेमको नाम दिन चाहन्न । म सायद उनी भित्र केहि खोज्दैछु । त्यसैले त म उनको पलपलमा अनुभब गर्न वा सम्झना चाहान्छु । म सायद कम बोल्छु । कति कुरा बोलेर भन्न गाह्रो छ भने कति कुरा लेखेर बर्णन गर्न पनि गाह्रो छ । ती कुरा हरु अनुभुति वा अनुभबले बुझ्न सक्ने हुन्छ र त्यो बुझ्न दुई आत्मा सम्बाद हुनु जरुरी छ । कति कुरा नभनेर नै मिठा हुन्छन् । त्यसैले त नभनेर मिठा हुनुलाई अनुभब गर्न सक्ने मन ज्ञान चाहिन्छ । सायद म त्यस्तै कुरा खोजिरहेछु । परिवेश र परिस्थिती अनुसार नभनिकन नै पुरा हुने काम हरु वा कुरा हरु मेरा खोजीका तत्वहरु हुन् ।
भावना र अनुभुति सँग प्रेम गाँस्नु पर्छ र यसैमा बिश्वास र आदार पनि प्रकट बन्छ । यस्तै यस्तै तर्क भित्र म डुबिरहन्छु । यी अब्यक्त अनुभुति कता कता तिते करेली जस्तै नमिठो तितो लाग्छ । एक पटक आफुले आफैलाई नियाल्छु । मेरा वरिपरी छरपस्टिएका किताब कापीले मलाई नै जिस्काई रहेको झै लाग्छ । अनि एक पटक भित्री हृदयसँग प्रश्न गर्न मन लाग्छ । तँ के सोच्न लाग्दैछस् उनी प्रति सोचेर बस्ने तँ को होस् साँच्ची म को हो मलाई नै थाहा छैन । उदेश्यहिन अनि गन्तब्यहिन यात्रामा भौतारिरहेको एक ब्यक्ति वा कल्पनाको संसारमा रमिरहने अनि अन्तरहिन सिमामा बाँच्न चाहाने एक ब्यक्ति वा जीबन जिउने प्रयासमा कैंयौ पटक ठक्कर खाएको घाईते अनि बेवारिसे ब्यक्ति उ यस्तै यस्तै तर्क भित्रमा म रुमल्लिरहन्छु । मलाईनै थाहा छैन म के सोच्दैछु । मलाई किन किन कोठामा बस्न मन लाग्न छोड्यो ती छरपस्टिएका किताब र कापीसँग लुकामरी खेल्न मन लाग्दैन । म अचानक त्यो कोठा बाट निस्कन्छु । कोठाबाट त निस्किए तर कहाँ जाने कसलाई भेट्ने केही थाहा छैन । म अन्योलमा त्यतिकै केहि बेर हिड्छु । गन्तब्यहिन भएको छ यो हिडाई । केहि कल्पना र केहि सम्झना सँग अल्मल्याउदै म हिडीरहेछु ।
बातवरण चिसो छ । त्यो चिसोमा म पनि केहि सेलाएको अनुभब गर्छु । हिडाईको त्यो मोडमा म एउटा कफि पसल देख्छु । मलाई कफि पिउन मन लाग्छ । म सरासर त्यो पसलभित्र पस्छु मानिसहरु टन्नै छन् । केहि नास्तामा ब्यस्ता छन् त कोही चिया अनि कफिमा ब्यस्त छन् । म चारैतिर हेर्छु । अचानक त्यहाँ एउटा टेबुलमा दुईजना कफि पिउदै गरेको देख्छु । एक जना त चिनेकै हो अर्को मेरो सम्झनामा छैन । सायद मैले नचिनेको हुनुपर्छ । मैले त्यहाँ हेर्नु र अर्पणाले मलाई हेर्नु एकै चोटी पर्छ । अर्पणाले बोलाई हाल्छिन् । म मन्द हाँसोमा त्यता तिर लाग्छु । त्यही एउटा मेचमा म बस्छु । तपाई पनि कफि पसलमा छिर्नु भएछ उ अर्पणा केही आश्चर्यमा प्रश्न गर्छिन् । म केहि असजिलो महशुस गर्छु । अँ आज अलि बढी चिसो छ सोचे कफि पिऊ म सामन्य हुने कोसिशमा जवाफ दिन्छु । अर्पणाले सहमतिको टाउको हल्लाउछिन् । म उ सँगैको साथीलाई हेर्छु । उनी मौन छिन् साँच्ची उ मेरो साथी रन्जना । हामी सँगै कलेजको साथी । अर्पणा उनको परिचय गराउछिन् । म हाई गर्छु उनी पनि मन्द हाँसोमा औपचारिकता अपनाउछिन् । त्यतिकैमा मेरो लागि कफि पनि आउछ । म कफि पिउन थाल्छु । अर्पणाले मेरो बारेमा खै के के भन्दै रन्जनालाई परिचय दिन्छिन् । म त्यति चाख दिदिन । म मौन नै बस्छु । अर्पणा र रन्जना एक अर्कामा गफ गर्नमा ब्यस्त छन् । उनीहरु सायद पढाईको कुरा गरिरहेकी छिन् ।
अर्पणा मलाई ठिकै लाग्छ । उनी सँग कहिलेकाँही मात्र भेटघाट हुने गर्छ । उनी बास्तबमा मेरी बहिनीकी साथी हुन् । अर्पणाका बारेमा सरदर सबै मलाई थाहा छ । जेठी छोरी दुईभाई एकबहिनी आमा गृहिणी अनि बुबा सामन्य ब्यापारी अनि अर्पणा पढ्नमा पनि ठिकै छिन् । हाललाई अर्पणा उनको काकाको अफिसमा काकालाई सामन्य सहयोग गर्छिन् । बस मलाई यति मात्र थाहा छ अर्पणाको बारेमा । कहिले काँही बहिनीसँग अर्पणा कस्तो साथी हो भन्दा ठिकै छ त्यस्तो नराम्रो त केहि छैन समझदार सहयोगी छे भन्ने उत्तर पाउथे । म केही सोच्दथे हाम्रो भेटघाट धेरै हुदैनथ्यो । कहिले काही म हतारमा हुन्थे त कहिले उनी हतारमा । तर म हरेक भेटमा अर्पणालाई ठिक पाउथे । म कफि पिउदैछु । अर्पणाले कहिले मेरो पढाईको बारेमा त कहिलेकाही मेरो कामको बारेमा सामन्य प्रश्न गर्छिन् । मेरो पृष्ठभमिको बारेमा अर्पणालाई सामान्य सबै थाहा थियो । त्यसैले त उनी तत्कालिन प्रश्नहरु सोध्ने गर्छिन् । अर्पणाका प्रश्नहरु केबल छोटा उत्तर दिन लायक हुन्थे । ती प्रश्नाहरुका उत्तरहरु भावानात्मक हुदैनथे । केहि समयको मेरो सोचाई अनि हाम्रो गफ पछि हामी त्यहाँ बाट छूट्टीन्छौ । अर्पणा र रन्जना अफिसतिर लाग्छन् । भने म आफ्नो बाटोतिर लाग्छु । तर कहाँ जाने थाहा छैन । अघि भर्खरैको अन्यौलता केहिबेर शान्त हुन्छ । मलाई यो छोटो कफि पसल सम्मको यात्रा सार्थक लाग्छ । कता कता मनमा सन्तुष्टिको आभास हुन्छ । म पुःन कोठामा नै लाग्छु । मलाई कोठामा पुग्न हतार हुन्छ । म छिटो हिड्छु । अघि आउँदा चिसो भएको त्यो बाटो अहिले चिसो लाग्दैन । म मा कता कता उमंग र खुशी छाएको प्रतीत हुन्छ ।
म कोठामा पस्छु । खाटमा गएर पल्टन्छु । निकै तर्क बितर्क चल्न थाल्छ एक प्रकारले म कल्पनामा रमाउन थाल्छु । उनी प्रतिको समिप्यता निकै गर्बित लाग्छ । भन्ने नै हो भने म कफिको चुस्किसँगै अर्पणाको प्रत्येक कि्रयाकलाप नियाल्दै थिए । उनको हरेक हावभावमा कफिको आनन्द लिदै थिए तर किन हो म गहिरिन नपाउदै मेरो सोचाई अनि भावनाहरु कतै अड्किन्थे अल्झिन्थे । म केही खोज्दै थिए तर पाउन सकिरहेको थिएन । केवल सतही भावनामा मेरा तर्कहरु फैलिन्थे केही पाउने आाशामा वा मेरा खोजीका तत्वहरु भेटाउने खोजीमा वा बिश्वासमा म पुःन अर्को भेटको कामना गर्दथे । केही बेर मेरो कोठा मलाई मन पर्छ । छरपस्टिएका किताब कापी मिलाउन थाल्छु तर किन हो बिस्तारै त्यो उमंग अनि उत्साह सेलाउदै जान्छ । म मा कता कता अघोषित युद्धको थालनी हुन्छ वा त्यस्तो महशुस हुन्छ । म आफुलाई ब्यस्त बनाउने प्रयास गर्छु । समय त्यसै त्यसै बितेर जान्छ । मेरो दैनिकी एक नियमित जस्तो लाग्छ । अध्ययन अनि ब्यक्तिगत काममा मेरो धेरै जसो दिनहरु बित्ने गर्छन् । मेरो जिन्दगीले धेरै जसो साथीहरुको खिल्ली पनि खाएको छ भने केहि साथीहरु तथा पाकाहरुको स्याबासी पनि पाएको छु । तर म यहि बिचमा कतै चुकेको जस्तो लाग्छ म अलि अलि कतै अड्केको छु जस्तो लाग्छ । म मा केहि कमी महशुस हुन्छ तर अह म पत्ता लगाउन सक्दिन । मेरो शालीनताले कहिलेकाँही मलाई नै धोका दिन्छ । म कहिले अति हुन्छु त कहिलेकाँही कम नै हुन्छु तर सरदरमा कहिले रहन सकिन । चुकेको चुरा जस्तै अनि चुडिएका गीतारका तार जस्तै म कतै नअटाउने ब्यक्ति ऊ किन किन आफै भित्र नमिठो लाग्छ । मेरो बर्तमान पुर्बानुभूति भित्र भबिष्यको कल्पनामा हराउछु । अर्पणा मेरो खोजीको प्राप्ति होईन वा भईसकेको छैन । मैेले आफैलाई निखार्नू छ अर्पणा जस सँग मैले केही पलहरु मात्रै साटसाट गर्न पाएको छु तर म पुर्ण छैन । मेरो खोजीमा पुर्णबिराम छैन । खै पुर्णबिराम कहिले लाग्छ थाहा छैन । कहिलेकाँही हृदयलाई टुँडिखेलको आकार दिन खोज्छु । सोचाईलाई अलि अलि पर राखिरहेछु भाग्य भन्दा दुर्भाग्य बढी पाउछु सफलता भन्दा असफलता बढी पाउछु । सोच्दा सोच्दै जीर्ण कमजोर हुन्छु । बिकल्पको सँघार हेर्छु केहि पाउदिन अनि सोचाईलाई सुघुरो बनाउने प्रयास छगर्छु । सोचाईलाई निचोर्न थाल्छु तर आँट आउदैन ज्वारभाटा ल्याउन खोज्छु तर सानो छालमा नै बिलाउछु । अर्पणामा मैले खोजेको कुरा पाउँँँँँँछु वा पाउँदिन थाहा छैन । म अर्पणालाई प्रेम गर्दिन । अर्पणा मेरो चाहाना बन्न सकेकी छैन । मलाई थाहा छ अर्पणा आफैमा पनि म प्रति कुनै त्यस्तो भावना छैन । उनी पनि मलाई प्रेम गर्दिनन् । हाम्रो भेट प्रत्येक पटक निरार्थक प्रतिफलहिन हुन्छ । तै पनि म प्रत्येक भेटमा केहि खोज्ने प्रयास गर्छु । मेरो प्रस्तुतीकरण अनि उनको औपचारिकता कताकता नमिलेको आभाश हुन्छ । केहि अरुनोपन मिसाउने प्रयास गर्छु तर असफल प्रयास । लाग्छ कतै म गलत त छैन जे होस जीबनको यो खण्डमा आईपुग्दा म सहि छु जस्तो लाग्छ । समय दिन महिना सँगै बित्दै जान्छ । मेरो दैनिकीमा परिबर्तन आएको छैन । एक दिन मेरो बहिनीले गफैगफमा अर्पणाको अर्को महिनामा बिहे हुदैछ नि भन्छिन् । म आश्चर्य चकित हुन्छु । म मा कता कता असजिलो महशुस वा अनुभब हुन्छ । आफुबाट केहि खोसिएको अनुभब हुन्छ तर मलाई गहिरो चोट महशुस हुदैन तर किन किन केही हराएको प्रतीत हुन्छ । कसैसँग नजिकिन खोज्छु अनी उनी बाटै टाढा हुनु कता कता नमिलेको महशुस हुन्छ । मैले अर्पणा बाट प्रेमको आशा पनि गरेको थिएन । नत मैले उनलाई प्रम नै गरे । केबल समिप्यता चाहे । केही खोज्ने अभिलाषामा तर सबै अपुर्ण । त्यो अपुर्णता अहिले उनको बिवाह सँगै सकिएको छ ।
जीबन अनेकौ मोडमा गुजि्ररहेको हुन्छ । ती मोडहरुमा अनेकौ सम्बन्धहरु स्थापित हुदै गएका हुन्छन् । एउटा यस्तो सम्बन्ध जस्को कुनै नाम दिन सकिदैन । केबल अनुभब गर्न सकिन्छ । त्यो प्रेम जहाँ श्रीमान श्रीमती बिच हुने प्रेम भन्दा पनि माथिल्लो स्तरको होस् । जस्को समिप्यता हरपल नौलो र ताजा होस् । म यस्तै तर्कमा अनि सम्झनामा आफुलाई ब्यस्त बनाउछु वा बनाईरहन्छु । मलाई अर्पणाको बिवाहमा कुनै गुनासो छैन । गुनासो छ त केबल मेरो खोज प्रति अनि चाहाना प्रति तर जीबन अनन्त छ । यतिकैमा मेरो बुवा कोठामा आउनु हुन्छ र भन्नु हुन्छ रन्जनासँग तिम्रो बिवाहको आईरहेछ । कुरो अगाडी बढाऊ म एकछिन स्तब्ध हुन्छ । म मौन बस्छु म के भनौ मलाई नै थाहा छैन ……………

समाप्त
दावा रिन्जीन लामा
बरुवा ९ सिन्धुपाल्चोक

…Love ache…

dawarinjin — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 03:53:11 +0000

As I continue my blog… This guy i am talking with, wants me back in his life… and I accept him again, and we were ok, it was 5months since then. I thought everything will be going fine.. until this few days, he wasn’t texting me anymore, i dont know why, i don’t even know what was the reason why he wasn’t texting me. I don’t know what was wrong with me, i been doing crazy things just for him but then, it isn’t enough. All i want is to be happy.

I dont know what should i do next, all i can say is to move on in life and for the last time, i am telling myself to definitely forget this man. i love him so much but still he doesnt appreciate it. I know it will be hard for me, we do have the same friends, and will definitely see each other in friends parties… but i will do my best to definitely ignore him.

TO DEFINITELY MOVE ON IN LIFE… EVEN I DO STILL LOVE HIM …

Do you know your roses?

dawarinjin — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 03:33:38 +0000

Have you ever wished you could come up with a new gift idea to show
your loved one how you feel?

Have you ever wondered about what the different colors of Roses
actually mean? For instance, next time you choose a specific color
of Rose, do so to convey a special meaning.

Look below and learn what the different Rose colors represent and
next time you buy a Rose as a gift, deliver a loving message at the
same time.

Colored Roses and What Each Color Means

Red – Love, I Love You

Pink – Perfect Happiness, Please Believe Me

Peach – Modesty

White – Innocence and Purity, I am Worthy of You, You’re Heavenly

Orange – Fascination

Yellow – Texas Love, Joy and Friendship

Single Full Bloomed Rose – I Love You, I Still Love You

White and Red Mixed – Unity

Rosebud – Beauty and Youth, A Heart of Innocent Love

Rosebud (Red) – Pure and Lovely

Rosebud (White) – Girlhood

Bridal – Happy Love

Christmas – Tranquilize My Anxiety

Damask – Persian Ambassador of Love

Dark Crimson – Mourning or Loss

Hibiscus – Delicate Beauty

Leaf – You May Hope

Tea – I’ll Remember Always

Thornless – Love at First Sight

Bouquet of Mature Blooms – Gratitude

Next time you buy your loved one a Rose as a gift, attach a
handwritten card to convey the message to him/her that the color
means. This is a great way to enhance your love life!

Here are some great examples for you to adapt for yourself:

Tea Rose — Last night was very special. I’ll Remember Always!

Dark Crimson — You mean so much to me. Can we try again just one
more time?

Rosebud (Red) — You take my breath away! You look so lovely!

Orange — You fascinate me! Can we spend more time together?

Even smaller, simpler messages will enhance your love life and will
thrill your partner!

The LOVE THAT WAS NEVER SATISFYING..

dawarinjin — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 00:54:06 +0000

One day, I, on my way to School, made a strange incident, In fact a beautiful incident. Someone came towards me and said, “excuse me somebody wants to meet you.” “Who”, said, I. “a gal.” replied. I didn’t understand. I smiled away as if a joke, and stepped for my School.”The next day, to my surprise the same person appeared in front of me again and said, “Sorry to keep bothering you, but she really wants to meet you.” In addition, left a chit to me, I was so foolish; I didn’t even bother to ask why? most importantly the caller’s name. However, the chit reads like this, “Life is only worth living once. Hi…ii, my name is Percy Shelley, and I’m sorry for the absurd behavior. But Please help me, the world is turning around me, while I am standing still. Be an angel and save me from this emptiness and loneliness. I’ll wait for you at the cafe. I believe you’d come.” why? I never knew. However, the phrase ‘Angel’, ‘Save me’, kept questioning…, cos I am just an ordinary being like her and not an angel.after the class, as I walk on, for home, I found my legs leading me towards her. I didn’t realize until she came and said, “hi, I knew you’d come. Thank you for coming, have a seat.” And continued saying, “life is pretty much unpredictable, we never know what the future is in store for us.” She introduced herself once again “My name is Percy Shelley.” U?” call me “Margrit” ”do I know you?” I asked. “nope you don’t know this lonely gal. Nor does she know you… Can she be your fren…pliz”. She Replied. She did all the talking I was speechless. I kept staring at her. She was beautiful, her voice as if an angel’s, so soft, long black hair, perfectly chiseled nose and eyes that spoke a thousand unspoken words. Everything in her was perfect…..but there was a flicker of something in them, I couldn’t define. That day was the only day when she spoke so much. After which I could hardly hear her angelic voice. Now, by the beginning of autumn, I, Margrit and Percy dated regularly. I became addicted to her and to her beautiful quotes. A day seems incomplete w/o her and chits, pondering she too felt the same. Every day she writes beautiful quotes for me, they came from the heart and cut through the heart. ,… God knew, how happy I was.. She was right and so the time was.! “I love you, not because of what you have done for me, but because of what I feels.. I care for you, not because you need care but because I want to.. I’m always here for you, not because I want you to be with me but because I want to be with you…” said She, never knowing what she did for me.. Most… importantly!!!.Our dating went on……I never realize when Percy became apart me. I could hardly breathe w/o her. She did something to me, I couldn’t define, yet it was the best part of me, I could remember. Percy taught me how to love someone truly, and erased the idea of flirting with many..!!!! After every end of our dates, Percy thank me and repeated the same quote to me, “If I had to count the reasons why I love you and why I’m so in love with you…I’d have to count forever.” I never realize why she repeated the same, every now and then.Every day Me and Percy dated in the same place, set beneath the same tree…. We talk about love, stories, movies, shared our past memories and likeness, etc.! Besides that, we didn’t talked about any other thing. We just lived in a world of our own. One day Percy turned, looking into my eye and said, “I want something of yours, Margrit? Write to me something….anything, so that I might take it with me.” “Sure, I’d love to!” I replied. But what to write, I didn’t know. Writing was something I always hated. But for her sake I tried to…! , in fact wrote many….she was glad to have them, so was I to write to her. Every day we both set beneath the same tree and wrote quotes/chits to each other, though nigh. Through Percy I’ve learned that even I could write beautifully…Though not that gud enough as compared to hers, and could be so romantic. Everything was good and perfect in our circle of frenshipAlas! Only God knew, what went wrong? She grew cold, talked strange and wrote strange. “I’ll take with me everything gifted by you when I leave, and will read it every day cos I love you every day and I miss you every day. I’ll take the love you gave me, I’ll take the memories you spent with me, I’ll take the quotes/chits you wrote to me. I still remember every word you’ve spoken even that I’ll leave not behind” Percy said, then tears roll down her cheek… Mergrit, “Percy, You asked me to be an Angel and save you, I couldn’t get it, But I came though I am not an angel..!! Your eyes speak a thousand unspoken words I am sorry I caN’T define them. Won’t you share/ tell me what’s going through you.” I tried to let her share, I force, to let her speak….But she won’t…Percy mummers, “Margrit, get me in your arm tightly.” As I embrace her, she continues again, “Very soon, very soon, you’d be let known of everything.” A seconds later, ”Margrit why did you come?“ I remained silent???. She turned towards me and kissed me on my cheek……!!, Continue “ Margrite, you really are an angel. I am so happy to be with you… I Love you!” “What’ll you be doing all these days if you weren’t dating with me/ we didn’t met.”–Percy- I replied, “ I’ll be flirting around fooling myself.” Percy, smiled “are you flirting with me? But I don’t mind” laughed.The time of our ‘departure’ was nearing with the end of autumn, but I never knew all I know was….just the ‘beginning’. I still remember the day. it was a Sunday, we dated by the morning till the evening. I didn’t got tired of her and I didn’t got tired of writing to her. I know she was glad too. She did all the silly and childish things, she ran, she jumped, she laughed at all silly things as if all her pain were washed away and they no longer lingers in her. She also collected sea shells, rare shape stones……..etc and gifted me at the end of the day, saying “forget me never”. Percy calling me…….. ran towards me.. ”Margrit, you know I love pink color, why you never bring me pink roses.” ahhahh…. Margrit apologies, “yeahh.! I am sorry I never did…&.., I never … thought.???” added …”I promise I’ll bring lots & lots of pink roses… tommor.” Percy, “I’ll be very glad to have them from your hand, babe, but I’m scared, if tomorrow never comes.” Looking me in the eye, she smile and turned away, beneath the tree. By now, sun was setting down and evening was hitting up. Percy call’d me “Margrit” as I kept standing still, “come, sit close to me”. Her voice was soft like and Angel’s, yet so melancholic. I could make it out, her heart was growing cold once again. Only God knew what was going through to me too?…I took out a shawl from her bag and covered her and kiss her on her cheek, forehead and eyes as she close them when I kissed her. And embrace her in my arm…. Percy,” Why didn’t you kiss me from before” added, “that’s the best I ever had and better than lots & lots of pink roses.” “why” I replied… she took a seconds and responded, “roses wither away, I can’t not prevent them from withering away but kisses don’t wither away.” added “If I had to choose between breathing and loving you I would use my last breath to tell you I love you”. She tried to smile but couldn’t. Tears roll down her cheek once again.At the end of the day, she promised to meet 3 days later. “I’d be busy,” Said she, and left. She knew, she never gonna see me again, never gonna date me again cos she knew, she had only a few hour left to live. That’s why she had been crying all these days. I never knew the reason/causes of her tears… Yet she never shared. I never knew, these happy moments would one day turn to a curse to me, and I never knew, behind these eyes would lie so much pain, so much tear and full of regrets.!! She betrayed me, she lie to me, when I didn’t..??? she made promises in vain cos she never came back again, while I kept waiting. I saw her never again, but all I could see was her grave beneath the tree where we once sat and dated. I never knew I could feel so much pain, and yet be so in love with the person causing it.She leaves with tears and now I am alone with tears, left out. Percy did something to me, Tears slipped down my cheek. I sat beneath the tree, beside her grave and wrote to her in pain and regrets, “Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you and me are never gotta be together in this life, is the hardest of it all.” ”You’re the reason behind my smile, you’re the reason behind my laughter, behind my happiness…because you’ve showed me what true love is all about? But I never thought you’re also the reason for my tears and for experiencing the greatest pain that could ever happen to me…Yet still I’m so much in love with you.” “They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don’t come back.” ”you did something to me I neither could define it, nor would I will ever forget it.”I knew deep inside my heart she won’t get them to read… So never I expected, never thought she’d speak to me again in this life… but that wasn’t true. She came and indeed, she talked to me in a different way, was that a dream or something else I couldn’t define. …, “Just when I thought that happiness could never be a part of me, that’s when you came along and showed me happiness!”……. “You too did something to me I never could define, but I never could forget.”…….. “Never regret because it ended, but instead be glad that we met”… “I promise I’ll be with you every day being you Shadow.” Then, I woke up in the middle of the lonely night and found tears still rolling down my cheek…Now, I know one thing is true…; everything in life is temporary, because everything changes. That’s why it takes great courage to love, knowing it might end anytime but having the faith it will last forever………….

Posted by dawa rin

life…..its own meanings….

dawarinjin — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 08:18:41 +0000

Why do I go day by day, stopping my self from ending it all? Is it because I’m afraid of what happens when I’m dead? People say, when you die you rest for all eturnity, in the most incredible place of all. Where streets are paved with gold, and people never gring their teeth. But if your heart is heavier than a feather, then you burn in a lake of flames for all eturnity. Her name was Emily… at first an ordinary girl, who I saw and hung out on the weekends, then to buying the occasional gift for. Next thing I knew I was having the most beautiful day of my life with her… (virginity.) We lived and loved for six long years, she took the greast days of my life with her when she left, all the times through heart ache, and hearted love. She was there for me, and I was there for her. But the day my heart was ripped from my chest was the worst beggining of the start of the last days of my life, (indepth thinking, but makes perfect sense if your good with grammer.) So now I remain clueless everyday of why I never saw her again. We were ready for a full day of fun and excitment, but when I woke up she was gone. With people make fun of people like me of the “perfectly wrong love story” with movies of comedy, joking around with my life, thining it’s “ha-ha larious,” (critic phrase.) Maybe I should show them all how “funny,” it is for people like me. Maybe I should just… This was writen not based off my life, but I’m sure there are many people in this world that feel like this. Once again this was written as a fiction essay… Thanks for Reading, please give advise, and comments… take it easy though I’m only forteen… Thanks Again!

FRIENDS

dawarinjin — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:51:46 +0000

We happen to face different people at different stages of life . Even the friends. I am very much satisfied by the article scrippled on the Himalayan Times (i am sorry for i forgot the name of the writer. He has categorised the friends in three groups…….
1. friends for a reason
2. friends for a season
3. friends for life time.
Here some people come in our life as a friend for certain reason . They help us and be with us till we complete our certain purpose. They show us and help us in understandin the differebt aspects of our life and helps us to tackle or deal with the problems . Even some are there to drag us to the new direction or make us change the track we are following, either wrong or right. No matter after the compleition we get apart either knowily or unknowinly.and the next here a friends come to our life ,teaches us to smile , enjoy and helps us to deal certain things. They are like God gift 2 us, they stay for a season but teach us a valuable lesson and go away from us. the reason might be anything. sometimes u both may get misunderstandings and separate, or sometimes u or he try to keep a distance and in this way this friendship ends but leaves a great mark……….the third one the frienmd for a life time. Which goes on with u without any selfish motive. U quarrel , u smile and u share ur life with eachother . U both are made for eachother. Relationship between two life parterners fall on this group…….I really liked the view presented by the writer on his article . Thou i hav written here in my own language .A selfless friend really matter a lot in life . I know its hard to get one who is indeed a very good friend but lets try to be one. If everyone try to be so , then we all together can be good friends to eachother………………….

LIFE IF LIFE….

dawarinjin — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:31:38 +0000

You may know me as one of those “popular kids” who is always hanging out with friends and blah,blah, blah but when all that’s taken away from you when the absolute love of your life say “I HATE YOU” your world comes to a stop. For three years me and Bri were in total smitten of each other. We always were together, and always laughing and having fun. Even though we weren’t your loving farytail we still had love for one another. We went three years not ksing, and when you want to spend time together only for each others company, instead of what the other can offer you know your in love. And finally that day came when she sawme kiss my cousin good bye(not romanticly, but as in a family kiss.) She didn't know she was my cousin, so she tells me to my face that were breaking up, and in the middle of the hall way I start to bust out in tears. With my heart ripped out of me and stabbed, all of my guy friends arelaughing at me, whileI'm on the floor crying my eyes out, while the love of my life walks away withno mercy of bring my heart back.



..जिबन सँग जोडीएका केही सम्बन्ध हरु….
dawarinjin — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 10:27:16 +0000
जहाँ सुर्योदय हुन्छ शायद त्यहा सुर्यास्त अवश्य हुन्छ सदा सर्वदा पुर्णिमा कहाँ हुन्छ ? अौसीमा चन्द्रमा त आध्यरो सिरकले मुख छोपी रुन वाध्य हुन्छ यहाँ सुखको पछाडि रोदन र रोदनको पछाडि खुशी अवश्य हुन्छ शायद संसारको रित यस्तै नै हो जन्मपछी मृत्यु अकट्य छ जीवन भएको स्थनमा मृत्‍यु पक्कै हुन्छअन्तर्मनमा अन्कुरिएका ति असंख्या चाहनाहरु जो जिउनुको अर्था खोज्दै भौतारिरहेका हुन्छन हासो,खुशी,आशु,रोदन,मिलन,विछोड, सन्जोग र वियोग संगै सम्झौता गरी समयकै दोशी बन्न आफ्नो गन्ताब्यहिन यात्रालाई छोटयेका हुन्छन संघर्श जो जीवनको उपहार हो त्यसैसंगै लडी आफु आफुमै जीवनतसम्म अपरिचित भई समयको आवेग् संगै लछारिदै पछारिदै हर एक ब्यक्तिसँग परीचित भएर बाच्नुको अर्थ शायद जीवन होलाजीवन असिमित् आरोह र अवरोधको गुच्छा हो ति गुच्चाहरुमध्ये कसैको निधार मा बिझाउने काडा होला त कसैको निधार मा लटरम्म फुल्ने फुल होला जेहोस् जीवन आफैमा सर्वश्रेठ छ र महान पनि छके मैनबत्तिको अस्तितो केही छैन त ? जो महान छ आफु जल्छ रुन्छ पग्लन्छ प्रकाश छरिदिन्छ शायद महान र बलिदानको परिभाशा भनेको यही नै होला सबैलाई उज्यालो आ-आफ्नो मतलब र स्वार्थ रहनछ यो मतलबी संसारमा यहाँ मैनबत्तिको आशुको प्रभाव कसलाई ? सबैलाई उज्यालो भए पुग्ने तर मैनबत्तिको पिडा सम्झने को ? यो संसारमा पिर,पिडा,चित्ता र दु:खबाट कोही स्वतन्त्रा छ? भगवान गौतम् बुद्ध पनि रहेनन कहिले बुढा मानिस् लाई देखेर त कहिले मरेको लाशलाई देखेर हरेक नयाँ बिहानिले नवजीवनको शुरुवात गराउदछ पुराना बिझ्ने काडाहरु मनबाट झिकेर फ्यक्दै अघी बढ्नुपर्छ हाम्रो भाग्यले हाम्रो सहन् शक्तिको परिक्षा दिन जिन्दगीका बाटहरुमा हजारौ बाधाहरु तेर्स्याउदछन् तिनलाई पन्छाउदै अघी बढ्नुपर्दछ बहादुरिको सबैभन्दा ठुलो परिक्षा त्यही हो बितेका कुरा सम्झना र अनुभव हुन आउने समयलाई समयको चित्रालाई आँखामा उतारी तस्नुपर्दछ तिनैलाई साकार रुप दिने सपना खेलाउनुपर्दछ विपना खुलाउनुपर्छ हरिया रुखका सम्पूर्ण पातहरु शिशिरले झारिदिन्छ पत सदाका लागि ति रुखहरु उजाड कहिल्यै हुँदैनन आँफै वसन्त आउँदैन बनभरी राताम्मे जुन फुलहरु फुलेका छन ति सबैले शित र वर्शातको आशु अनी असिना र घामको संघर्श बोकेका छनगूण देरै खायो भने तितो हुन्छ रे यो अवस्य हो यो कुरा सत्य छ तर यहाँ गूणको के दोश स्वाद चाख्न्ने जिब्रोको होइन र ? प्रेमलाई पुतलिको खेलौना सम्झने धोकेबाजहरु मायाको भाषाले जिन्दगीको परीभाषा दिन मुर्खता मात्र हुन्छ सपना र विपनाको बिचमा अन्तर यही होला शायद मेरो विचारमा,,,………….देखेका सपनाहरु अक्सर विपनामा आएर भत्कने गर्दछ बितेका ति क्षेणहरुलाई एउटा सग्या दिएर बिहानिको उदयसँग जिन्दगीलाई दोर्याउनु बुद्धिमानी हो हो केही मन रोइदेला हृदयले नमान्ला त्यही पनि परिस्थिती त्यस्तै पर्न आयो भने कसैलाई बलिदन पनि गर्नुपर्छ मनलाई यती बलियो बनाउनु कि बिस्वासघात् वा निस्ठुरिको सम्झनाले मन कहिले नरोओस र परेलिबाट मोती नझरोस हामी पनि मान्छे हौ हामी अरुको स्वार्थको लागि विश पिउने पशुपतिथ त अवश्य बन्न सक्दैनौ कसैले हाम्रो मुटु टुक्रा टुक्रा पारीदियो भन्दैमा के हामी स्वयमले आफ्नो मुटुमाथि छुरी घोचेर छिया छिया पार्नु उचित छ कसैले तिम्रो मुटुमाथि चोट पुर्याउछ भने आफुले झन चोट थप्नु उचित हुन्छ ? यहाँ जिन्दगीलाई वर्तमानले सम्झाउनुपर्दछ हामीले हाम्रो जिन्दगीलाई बगैचाको फर्केको फुलले सजाउनुपर्दछ झरेका पातहरु गनेर अवस्य होइन हामीले हाम्रो रातहरु आशुले सिरानी भिजाएर होइन छायाहरुलाई गनेर होइन आकाशका ति ताराहरु गनेर बिताउनुपर्दछ जीवन वास्तवमा आशैमा अडिएको छ सुर्यतिर फर्किएर अघी बढ्यो भने छाया स्वत: नै पछाडि नै पर्छ जब सेता परेवाहरु कागहरुसँग घुलमिल गर्न थाल्छन् तिनका आँखामा सेतै रहन्छ तर मुटु मन भने कालो नै रहन्छ अक्सर धोकेबाजहरुको मन यसरी नै कालो बनेको हुन्छ जब तिनले कागबाट धोका पाउछन तब मात्र यथार्थको आँखाले हेर्न थाल्दछन पश्ताचापमा जल्छन तिमी अब त्यसदिनलाई प्रतिक्षा गर धैर्या गरेर पर्खन सक्नुपर्दछ प्रतिक्षाको फल मिठो हुन्छपाउजु नलगाई पनि शायद मजासँग नाच्न सकिन्छ विगतलाई बिर्सिएर वर्तमान अगाल्दै बाँच्न सकिन्छ म आँफैसँग मेरो जुत्ता हराएर चिन्तित भए तर अलि पर अगाडि पुगेपछी एउटा खुट्टा नभएको मान्छे देखे मसँग कमसेकमा खुट्टा त छ यहाँ धर्तिमा तिम्रालागी फुलेका फुललाई बिर्सेंर तिमी आकाशको तारा तिप्न हात नफैलाउ सबै कुराको आ आफ्नो सुन्दर्ता हुन्छ पसलेले मात्र जान्दछ हिराको मूल्य सिसा पसलेले तिम्रो महत्व बुझिदिएन भनेर के तिमी आँफैलाई टुक्राउन सुहाउछ ?तसर्थ संघर्श नै संघर्शको जीवन झेली संसारमा अडनुपर्छ साथी विस्वासहरु बनाउदै आफुले अघी बढ्ने कोशीस गर्नुपर्दछ आफ्नो मनलाई बाधिराख्न्नुपर्दछ फुत्कन कहिल्यै दिनुहुदैन तिमीलाई काडाकाडाको भुमरिमा फसाएर आफु तर्की जानेछ त्यसैले कसैले कसैको विस्वास नगर्नु किनकी ढुङ्गाको चोट खानुपर्दछ माया कसैले कसैलाई नबुझिकन नगास्नु निश्टुरी मन पनि हुनसक्छ त्यसैगरि तिम्रो कलिलो मुटुमा तिखो काडा घोची मायाको नाउमा तिमीलाई खेलौनाको पात्र बनाइदेला please be careful in your love …………………